The Word of My Testimony

"They [those who believe in Christ] triumphed over him [Satan] by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony" Revelation 12:11

Today was my first chance to speak the word of my testimony to others, specifically in my walk through the fire pertaining to Ruthie. I was asked by a friend and sister-in-Christ if I would be so willing to recap my story in 10 minutes. The thought of taking months of struggles and forming it into 10 minutes was almost mind-boggling. I have known about this for almost a month now, and until last night had no idea what I was going to say. I was patient and waited on God for the cues as to what I should talk about, and then finally He unleashed on me. My talk covered a brief few minutes of the story, the commitment that Brian and I made, and the lessons learned. As I spoke to the gathering of ladies of all ages, God used me as a vessel. I just had some notes to keep me on track and God did the rest. As He used me to minister to those in the audience, I think the person He ministered to most was me. Things came out of my mouth that were great revelation to me! How awesome our God is that He used me to minister to myself!! The recapping of the past few months proved to be healing to my soul. I am certain God arranged this speaking engagement not just for my sisters-in-Christ, but mostly for me.

Tracie, the woman who invited me into the study, mentioned that at one point the sun came through the windows in such a way that it illuminated me. Apparently the lighting was dramatic enough that the lady in charge of lighting thought she had hit a switch accidentally. That lighting was what I was experiencing in my spirit as I spoke. I would say something and God would say, "Did you hear that, Lex?" During that ten minutes God affirmed that Brian and I were His children with whom He was well pleased. He also reminded me that outside of our initial commitment to "praise Him through the storm" He alone was our source of strength and power. A comment came from my mouth that I had never thought of before. I said (with the help of the Lord, of course), "Something amazing happens when we choose to crucify our free will and do what the Lord wants."

You see Brothers and Sisters, something awesome happens in the heavenlies when we as fallen humans realize that we could be angry at God, but we choose not to. That is our free will at work. When we make those decisions God is pleased and blesses us abundantly. I can testify this as truth, the blessings have been more than Brian and I deserve.

As I was writing my talk, God reminded me yet again of the amazing Bible heroes whose shoes I was walking in. David knew first hand what it meant to grieve his dead son. Abraham was asked to sacrifice his son Issac on God's altar. It was a test to see if Abraham would believe God for anything; Abraham passed. God chose Job to be tested by Satan because He knew Job could handle it and not deny God. I have had my moments of David faith, knowing "I will go to her" (2Sam12). I have had my moments of Abraham faith where I said, "Lord, Your will be done. I trust that you will bring this moment to good. If You need Ruthie to accomplish Your will on Earth, I hand her over to You." I have had my seasons of Job where things seem to pile up: Ruthie, frige breaking, cars broken, children acting out, attack upon attack. But I view God in heaven saying to my accuser, Satan, "Consider my servant Lexi," and I remember that God will never give me more than I can bear and He will prove faithful in His relationship with me.

So today I overcame my enemy. The great accuser, Satan, the serpent, the dragon, the prince of this earth, the father of lies, the master of confusion himself was overcome by the word of MY testimony coupled with the blood of the lamb, our precious Jesus Christ. Praise God that today, Satan was defeated in my life again, and hopefully the lives of many others who could see their story and struggle through mine.

Beloved, if you have not spoken the word of your testimony, may I ask, "What are you waiting for?" Your breakthrough could be right on the other side of coupling your words with Christ's power. Tell someone today how Jesus has worked in your life, I guarantee they will not be the only one blessed, God will minister to you through your own speaking! How awesome our God is!

*A special thank you to Tracie. I dedicate this post to you, for you are the source of it's inspiration. You have no idea what meeting your ladies did for me. I am sure that God used me to bless them, but your invitation blessed me far more.*